Never Again…
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| Charlie’s 20 week scan |
Never again will I get to see a babies silhouette on a scan photograph.
Never again will get that first kick and feel so proud.
Never again will I get kicked at 3am and scream at my tummy to go to sleep.
Never again will I get that feeling when I see my baby for the first time.
Never again will I see a first tooth, a first roll, a first crawl, a first step, a first word…
Never again will I get that sensation, just after giving birth, where I feel empty inside… but wait, I do… I feel so empty. No baby, but not in a good way. I’m not getting to meet my baby and it just dawned on me how gutted I actually am.
Why me? Why us? I’ve had 2 perfect little boys so why not another now? What’s wrong with me? Will I ever get over it?
I know you’ll probably think I’m been over dramatic, well I wasn’t that far, but in fact, when you think about it, I would have been going for a scan this week. I would now be nearly 12 weeks gone. 3 months into my pregnancy.
Getting used to being a family of five but no… not any more…
Thinking of you sweetheart. Sending a big massive huggles xxxx
Bless you hunni xx
Aw *hugs* xx
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Virtual hug! xxxx
Oh hun, no words will make things better. I hope that time is a healer for you, love & hugs xxx
Hugs hunni xxxx
I've been there, same time, found out at my 12 week scan, it was between number 1 and 2 for me. I know how you feel, no it isn't fair, but it is not uncommon either. I went on to have 5 more, if you want more I hope you can too. For now Hugs and enjoy the family with you now.
I do remember my biggest regret was 3 months of morning sickness for nothing, how selfish was that! I never told anyone bar my husband for years. Just my odd way of dealing with it. I rang in sick to work to have the D&C and went back the next day. No one knew and normality reigned. I'm not recommending this, I just know it's how I deal with tragedy, I "park it" till later when I feel ready to deal with it! I hope you can take comfort from the kind messages here.
Bless you – sending a warm hug x
Thinking of you. I don't think you are being dramatic at all, I completely understand how you feel and can relate to what you have written. Perhaps in the future you will be a family of 5 if that is what you want x
Bless you. Sending thoughts and hugs x Julie Perry
Thank you all for your comments, it really is appreciated x